update: i'm not as upset as this post makes me seem. i'm just kinda in a weird place.


all i can think about is my own death. i'm extremely aware of my existence as a living thing. it is very depressing and scary to always think about dying. i don't know why this is happening. i think it is socrates's fault.

i don't know if this is just a phase or this is how i will feel for the rest of my life. that also scares me.

i'm very afraid.

but otherwise, i'm fine.