so, i guess some people still come around here. unfortunately, i'm not feeding you all with great posts as of late, but only because i have little to post about. my life is not full of strange surprises or dramatic turns; instead i have hit a deliciously comfortable pattern that is not so rigid that i am bored, but is strong enough that i don't feel aimless and fucking bored. in other words, nothing much is actually happening, but this is not a bad thing. let us go over some of the finer points, just for posterity's sake:

- i go to classes most of the time, and work at both the library and for monster.com, where i am hoping to secure a job offer within the next few weeks.

- i am dating a silly, cute, wonderful girl whom most of you know named ursula. things are fine, and any drama that we ever have is quickly resolved among ourselves.

- i live in a good house with good peeps and across the street from good peeps, so i never feel isolated (as i did at times last year) or alone, and often feel overwhelmed by the constant presence of other people - but i still love it, overall.

- my free time consists of fucking around on the computer, listening to endless music, playing even more endless video games, and watching some sports or other tv. video games i'm engrossed in right now - ncaa football, madden, viewtiful joe (a seriously amazing game), f-zero gx (a seriously hard game), marvel vs capcom 2, and (to a much lesser extent right now) chrono cross. i like video games a lot. possibly too much.

- i've gone back to playing guitar off and on, which is much better than the zero guitar i played all summer.

... that's it? i don't have as much creative output as i used to, with the poetry and the art and whatnot. i keep saying "take pictures, niv", but i can't force the kind of pictures i want to take, though i guess i could take more random pictures of people, since i happen to be around people almost all the time.

i think my life right now is fitting very well with my need to be around people and my disinterest in going to parties. sometimes i want to go out and i get shut down, but most of the time, even when i think i want to go out, its just me tricking myself. i like being in relaxed situations with friends. hm. that pretty much describes my life now.

anyways... this is why i don't post. my life is following a good pattern. i usually turn to elscorcho when my life hits a weird glitch or turns somewhat sour. perhaps i should rethink how i use this space, so that i might use it more during these good times. these are, after all, quite good times.