this post has been edited on december 7, 2004 09:49

quickly, before i forget


people at home ... yeah. so i'm obviously calmed down, cuz as i said before, there's a very good chance i don't see any of those people again for a long time. when i was home, i wanted to spend most of my time with 4 people - geoff, chad, trills, nitin. i found time spent with girls entirely unfulfilling. i found time spent with andrew pretty unfulfilling too. so we have 3 groups of people here - male friends i like still, girls, and andrew. let's break it down.

first, andrew - he's obnoxious and annoying and is too busy trying to be a populist to actually be a useful friend.

second, girls - it seems all these girls are worried about themselves more than anything else. now, this might not be a huge change. but given that i had about 0 engaging conversations with girls who i've had many engaging conversations with, this was kind of annoying. at least, this is how i felt at the time. looking back, i can see that i pretty much avoided contact with girls. i dunno, i'm just not interested i guess. nooo interest.

it's really kinda weird.

also, sinead was not nice to me. she was outwardly not nice to me. that was real surreal.

according to chad, there's this whole "sinead thinks niv doesn't like her, and niv thinks sinead doesn't like him" thing going on, but it really seemed like i was just moderately nice slash aloof and she was outwardly mean slash hurt. i'm just trying to regain normalcy that was lost at some point during school when we stopped talking to each other (mainly because i think she never told me anything about her life at school, but thats another story), but she seems to be hurt about something i did. i wish i knew what? or maybe i don't care. i dunno. it's just not very interesting.

noooo interest.